Lyrics to "By your Side"

Why are you striving these days?

Why are you trying to earn grace?

Why are you crying?

Let me lift up your face

Just don't turn away.

Why are you looking for love?

Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough?

To where will you go child,

Tell me where will you run,

To where will you run.

And I'll be by your side

Wherever you fall

In the dead of night

Whenever you call.

And please don't fight

These hands that are holding you

My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side

They swallowed the grave on that night

When I drank the world's sin

So I could carry you in

And give you life

I want to give you life...

Cause I, I love you

I want you to know

That I, I love you.

I'll never let you go..."

The Lord has obviously laid these lyrics on my heart today, because I heard this song 3 times on the drive back to Spartanburg, and didn't know the artist, so I made a mental note to look it up when I got home. And, then, I sign online and see where a fellow believer has blogged about the Lord giving her this very song today. And, I sat there, amazed by God's grace and love. He knows what I am struggling with lately; he knows my fears, inhibitions, weaknesses. He knows it all, and yet, he stays by my side through all my sin, struggles and the times that I don't follow him. He's there, all day, every day, to wipe away my tears, to rejoice in the good times, to comfort me during sad times. He's there...I'm just bypassing him by. Ashamed to admit it, but I am. All the while, he's waiting right there, patiently waiting for me to return to his arms. What a wonderful Lord I serve!

Supermarket defends itself over Adolf Hitler cake
EASTON, Pa. – A supermarket is defending itself for refusing to a write out 3-year-old Adolf Hitler Campbell's name on his birthday cake. Deborah Campbell, 25, of nearby Hunterdon County, N.J., said she phoned in her order last week to the Greenwich ShopRite. When she told the bakery department she wanted her son's name spelled out, she was told to talk to a supervisor, who denied the request.
Karen Meleta, a ShopRite spokeswoman, said the store denied similar requests from the Campbells the last two years, including a request for a swastika.
"We reserve the right not to print anything on the cake that we deem to be inappropriate," Meleta said. "We considered this inappropriate."
The Campbells ultimately got their cake decorated at a Wal-Mart in Pennsylvania, Deborah Campbell said Tuesday.
A Wal-Mart spokesman told The Associated Press on Wednesday that in light of the incident, the company would review its guidelines regarding cake decorations and other requests.
"It's clear that in serving this customer, some people were offended," spokesman Greg Rossiter said. "As a result, we're going to review our policies."
Heath Campbell said he named his son after Adolf Hitler because he liked the name and because "no one else in the world would have that name."
The Campbells' two other children are named JoyceLynn Aryan Nation Campbell, who turns 2 in a few months, and Honszlynn Hinler Jeannie Campbell, who will be 1 in April.
Campbell said he was raised not to avoid people of other races but not to mix with them socially or romantically. But he said he would try to raise his children differently.

Seriously, I was in the nail salon today when this flashed across the news. Let me add that I was in the painful process of getting my eyebrow's waxed, and heard this, and abruptly jerked my head to look at the television, which will ultimately cause my eyebrow's to be goofed up. But, really, I was astonished that someone would name their child Aldof Hitler. People in this world are so ignorant. So freakin ignorant!

Ahhh...a Friday night, home ALONE, yet again. Usually, it doesn't bother me, but tonight, it's getting on my damn nerves!



I'm almost finished with the last of the Twilight series, and am curious as to how I will entertain myself from this point on. I've been obsessed with them thus far, and it's funny, because I've passed around my whole office...EVERYONE is reading them.



And, I found out that I am not the only one who thinks Emmett is much HOTTER than Edward.

There just simply isn't a comparison, but I must agree with Gilbs that Emmett is so much more my type, since obviously, I am attracted to that type of guy. You know, white tee shirt, jeans, not really preppy at all, but please note: NOT A BLACK tee shirt, because that is so not cool, and I will change someone's wardrobe, as I successfully have before...TWICE actually.

As of today, the nurses in the ED will hate me, because I will be the "bitchy tattle-tail," because I went above their heads, because they can't finish their charts on time, and it's totally screwing up my billing. I mean seriously, how long does it take to finish a ER chart. They are obviously setting the new record, and they are up to 14 days.

So, I also found out a lot of GOOD drama today at work. One thing in particular is that there used to be this little game between three females where they would see who could sleep with the "new guy" on the block first. I think that's totally classy, and hilarious, and it sorta reminds me of Grey's Anatomy. But, I shall not lie, cause I love hearing the gossip and drama, as long as it's not about me.

Tomorrow, my plans are to sleep all freakin day long, because I apparently have diagnosed myself with insomnia, and have only slept maybe 10 hours since last Saturday night. And, when I do wake up tomorrow, I'm treating myself to a manicure and pedicure, because I so deserve it.

Well, today, has been a CRAZY Monday, but what's new. First of all, I got up really early this morning, cause I was going to be a good boss and actually get to work early, and not 30 minutes late, like I usually am. Well, yeah, that didn't happen.


And then...I get halfway to Gaffrica, and realize that I think I left my steamer on, so what do I worry about? Not that I will burn down the entire house I share with 2 other people, but no..my only concern is Bentlee. So, I text my dear friend Lizzie-G at 8am and tell her to alert her husband that if my house is on fire, please break a window and get my dog out. Yes, I realize that I am DRAMATIC!!!


Well, Lizzie-G texts me back...at 5pm...8 hours later, to tell me that there hasn't been a fire, but that the contractors painted the back porch today, and I would have to come in through the front door. Not usually a problem, but I locked the chain on my front door.

And, then, I find out that my favorite great aunt has cancer, and it's not looking good. And, then, my uncle gets bit by a stray dog, and guess who his paramedic is...my ex!





And then, some idiot has the nerve to tell me that his cow, Marvin, is WAY cuter than Bentlee.

This is Marvin, by the way....so not cuter than my Bent-Bent.

I'm so excited about all the new teen reality shows on MTV, such as the one with Whitney from the Hills. I absolutely can't wait, and my cell phone calendar is filled with reminders for new tv programs that I want to watch.

I'm off to bed...I was told today that my eyes look like I haven't slept in years, so I am guessing that means that I definately need my beauty sleep. Oh, by the way, I didn't leave my steamer on this morning!!

What I want Santa to bring me for Christmas!!!

An I-Phone....I REALLY, REALLY want this!!

A 2009 Trailblazer!!

A man....who looks just like this one!

So, it's been a crazy couple of weeks. I finally got my well deserved promotion....YAY me! And, I officially began my new position on Monday, December 1st. And, what a week. It was the most overwhelming week of my life....stressful, demanding, PRESSURE, PRESSURE, and MORE PRESSURE. It's not like it's a new job or anything, as I have been the Assistant Director for a year now. It's just like I got overwhelmed, and wasn't sure what task to complete first. Due to the currect economic situation, I've been forced to make some major cost reduction plans within my 5 departments...and it's been HARD. But, ya gotta do what ya gotta do!

Other than that, I've been getting in the Christmas spirit. I debated on putting up my Christmas tree, because I was fearful that my wild Bentlee would tear it apart, but it has successfully been up for 1 week now! And, it even has wrapped presents under it, and Bentlee has not bothered them at all.

Speaking of Bentlee....he has a new nickname, Bratty Bentlee, because that is what he is. He can be the biggest brat. He will sit there and stare at me, and WHINE, WHINE, WHINE.

And, he is very high maintenance....kinda like his Mommy! :) He is NEVER satisifed, and drives me crazy sometimes, but it's so great having him. I love him greeting me at the door everyday when I come home.

Some more exciting news...my brother got engaged over Thanksgiving. I'm excited for him and Ashley. They are getting married on May 1, 2010. It's kinda crazy that Adam is getting married...he is my little brother. But, I am sooo happy for him, and I love Ashley like a sister already.

Well, gotta get ready for another work week....

This is the scariest election that we as Christians have ever faced. From the looks of the polls, the Christians aren't voting Christian values. We all need to be on our knees. Do you believe we can take God at His word? Call upon His name, then stand back and watch His wonders to behold. His scripture gives us, as Christians, ownership of this land and the ability to call upon God to heal it. I challenge you to do so. We have never been more desperate than now for God to heal our land. 2 Chronicles 7:14 : If my people, which are called by my name shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land."
Christians all across the nation need to be on their knees before the Lord, praying that the Lord will give people wisdom as they are going to vote polls. We need to pray for God's will during this election!

****8 things about me!!!*******

8 Things About Me....

8 Favorite TV shows:
In no particular order
1. One Tree Hill
2. Friends
3. Desperate Housewives
4. Beverly Hills 90210
5. That 70's Show
6. Grey's Anatomy
8. Dr. Phil



8 Favorite Restaurants:
1. Subway
2 Olive Garden
3. Grigg's Grocery
4. Sonic
5. Sub Station2
6. Arbys
7. Outback
8. Chic-fil-A

8 things that happened yesterday:
1. Worked
2. Listened to patients complain
3. Called my momma
4. Watch TV
5. Played with Bentlee
6 Dinner with Lizzie Grace
7. Took a long hot bubble bath with a glass of wine
8. Went to bed early

8 things to look forward to:
1. Thanksgiving with my family
2. Going home this weekend
3. Christmas
4. My future
5. New clothes shopping
6. Getting my hair cut on Saturday
7. The weekend
8. A new job !!

8 things I love about fall:
1. My electricity bill going down
2. College Football
3. Thanksgiving
4. The leaves changing
5. Pumpkin pie, pumpkin bread, and pumpkins
6. Yellow mums
7. Shopping for Christmas gifts (I love giving gifts and shopping)
8. Traveling....

8 Things on My Wish List:
1. Finding my soulmate, getting married
2. Being a mommy!
3. Happiness for myself, family and friends
4. A new, fulfilling career
5. Buying my first house
6. To travel the world
7. A maid to clean my house
8. Lots more wishes!

Vote McCain and Palin!!

I got this from a friend and I think this hits it on the head!!
Think about it!!

Yesterday on my way to lunch I passed a homeless guy with a sign that read "Vote Obama, I need the money." I laughed. Once in the restaurant my server had on a "Obama/Biden 08" pin, again I laughed as he had given away his political preference. When the bill came I decided not to tip the server and explained to him that I was exploring the Obama redistribution of wealth concept. He stood there in disbelief while I told him that I was going to redistribute his tip to someone who I deemed more in need, the homeless guy outside. The server angrily stormed away. I went outside, gave the homeless guy $5 and told him to thank the server inside as I've decided he could use the money more. The homeless guy was grateful. At the end of my rather unscientific redistribution experiment I realized the homeless guy was grateful for the money he did not earn, but the waiter was really pissed that I gave away the money he did earn even though the homeless guy seemed to need the money more. I guess redistribution of wealth is an easier thing to swallow in concept than in practical application.

New at this blogging thing............

My sweet puppy, Bentlee!

So, I've seen alot of my friends with BLOGS lately, and it's sparked my interest. And, anyone who truly knows me, knows that I absolutely love writing, and putting my feelings in written form. So, I've decided to create a blog to share my life with others. I can't guarantee that it won't bore some, because trust me, my life is bascially summed up like this: I get up, go to work for about 10 hours a day, then go home, spend time with my pup-pup Bentlee, and then go to bed to start the process over again the next day.

I live in Spartanburg, and moved here for a job. I am the Assistant Director of Business Office Services for Health Mananagment Associates. I work at Upstate Carolina Medical Center.

And, I'm still searching...26 and still have NO CLUE what I want to be when I grow up. One day, I want to go get my M.A.T and teach 2nd graders, and the next, I want to get my M.B.A and travel the world as a business woman.

But, what I really want is to be happy, no matter what I am doing. I want to fall in love with my soulmate (I need not mention that ALL of my friends are now either married, with or without children, or engaged to be married). I want to be a mommy, and soon, but that doesn't seem like it will ever happen. I've always said that if I wasn't married by the time I was 28, I would adopt, because I feel that it is God's calling for me to be a mommy. 28 is only about 17 months away....so we'll see what happens between now and then.

I love the Lord....and can't imagine my life without him, although my relationship with him hasn't always been something that I am proud of. He has never left my side, and has blessed me with so much, and I am so grateful, but am so guilty of not thanking him enough.

I love to sing, and am grateful that God has given me that talent.

I have a wonderful family. My parents are divorced, but I am so okay with that, and am actually grateful that it happened. My mom has a wonderful partner, Joey, who has been a constant blessing in our lives. He is such a wonderful man, and provider for our family, and I am so grateful for that. My dad and I have a good relationship, although there once was a time that I didn't think that would happen. He is funny, and constantly makes me laugh. My brother, Adam, is 24, and is great. He has a wonderful girlfriend, Ashley, and I can't wait for her to be my sis-in-law. I have three living grandparents, and they are all such role models for me.

So, that's my life at the moment.....It changes daily, because I am still trying to figure out where God is taking me. Right now, I'm just holding on to HIM, seeking his will, and living my life to the fullest!