God's plan for my love life!

Everyone wants to give themselves completely to someone--to have a deep, good relationship with another--to be loved thoroughly, excusively. But God, to a Christian says:

No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by me alone- with giving yourself totally and unreservedely to me alone- to have an intensely personal and unique relationship with me, exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of all other desires or longings.
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing-and that you can't imagine. I want you to have the best-please allow me to bring it to you. You keep watching me, expecting the greatest things. Keep experienceing the satisifaction that I am. Be patient, that is all.
Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look around at the things others have gotten or that I have given them. Don't look at the things you want, just keeping looking off and away, up to me, or you will miss what I have planned for you. And, then, when you least expect it, I'll surprise you with a love for more wonderful than anything else you have dreamed of. You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have picked out for you is ready, until you are both satisfied with me, and the life that I want you to have, you will not be able to expericene the love that exemplifies a relationship with me--A PERFECT LOVE!
And dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love, I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love that I offer. KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU UTTERLY. I AM GOD! Be still, believe and be satisified!

Not Gonna Settle....

"Fifteen minutes left to throw me together
For Mr. Right Now, not Mr. Forever
Don't know why I even try when I know how it ends
Lookin' like another, "Maybe we can be friends."
I've been leaving it up to fate
It's my life so it's mine to make
I ain't settlin'
For just getting by
I've had enough so-so
For the rest of my life
Tired of shooting too low
So raise the bar high"
Just enough," ain't enough this time
I ain't settlin' for anything less than everything
With some good red wine
And my brand new shoes
Gonna dance a blue streak around my living room
Take a chance on love, and try how it feels
With my heart wide open
Yeah, you know I will
Find what it means to be the girl
Who changed her mind
And changed the world
I ain't settlin'
For just getting by
I've had enough so-soFor the rest of my life
Tired of shooting too low
So raise the bar high"
Just enough," ain't enough this time
I ain't settlin'
For just getting by
I've had enough so-so
For the rest of my life
Tired of shooting too low
So raise the bar high
I ain't settlin'
No, no, no, no, no, no
So raise the bar high, high...."

My momma has always told me not to settle, in any aspect of my life, for ANYTHING less than what I deserve. As I look back over the last few years, in relationships, in my career, in my daily life, I feel like I have been "settling" for what I thought I could have. It's like I find something that I think I want, and I hold on to it, not letting go, for the fear of not finding something better. When, all the while, I know that I deserve better. And, I know that eventually, that "something better" will come my way. I feel like I've spent the last few years "settling," keeping things and people close by, kind of like my safe haven, while, all the while, I'm looking the whole time for something better to come my way. I guess I'm just realizing now that I deserve better, and that's what I'm out to find!!

My Big Mouth Family

I went home this past weekend, and had a weekend of nothing but family time. We had a shower for my Jason and Kari, and I've since decided that I need to get married, have a baby, or move, because they got lots of presents, and I was jealous!
But anyways, it was a lovely time with the family. I spent the weekend at my Granny's, and I haven't stayed there much in my teenage/adult years, so it brought back lots of memories. Especially when she called me the day before I got there to tell me she had bought me some snacks. Two things came to my mind: 1, I don't snack really and 2, I'm sure my Granny doesn't really know what sweet stuff I like to eat, some I'm pretty sure it Debbie cakes or something icky like that...
But, much to my surprise, it was Krispy Kreme donuts, which was wonderful. Good going, Gran!
In the midst of my family time, I've discovered that my family is very open and honest, and says whatever comes to mind, and it makes me laugh, so I figured I would share some conversations.

***Garrett, my 8 year old cousin, who had just "caught" a new pet turtle (#3) at my Granny's pond.
G: I named the turtle Anna.
Me: I thought the name was Tuck.
G: Well, it was, but it's a girl, so I had to change it.
Me: Garrett, how do you know that it's a girl.
G: Duh, I looked up under the turtle, and trust me, it's a girl!

Seriously???

***My 70 something year old church going Granny.
When asked at the shower if there was a strong man in the room, and her son was the only man around says, "Well, he's a man, but you better look elsewhere for the strong part."

When telling a story about someone who was talking about weight loss failures, my Granny says, "And, let me tell you, when I hugged her, she had fat rolls all around her middle."

When someone at church on Sunday asked where the rest of my family was, my church going Granny replies "They are all hungover."
Please know that she didn't mean this literally...I don't think that the person she was talking to knew that.

Family...gotta love them!!!