Not Gonna Settle....

"Fifteen minutes left to throw me together
For Mr. Right Now, not Mr. Forever
Don't know why I even try when I know how it ends
Lookin' like another, "Maybe we can be friends."
I've been leaving it up to fate
It's my life so it's mine to make
I ain't settlin'
For just getting by
I've had enough so-so
For the rest of my life
Tired of shooting too low
So raise the bar high"
Just enough," ain't enough this time
I ain't settlin' for anything less than everything
With some good red wine
And my brand new shoes
Gonna dance a blue streak around my living room
Take a chance on love, and try how it feels
With my heart wide open
Yeah, you know I will
Find what it means to be the girl
Who changed her mind
And changed the world
I ain't settlin'
For just getting by
I've had enough so-soFor the rest of my life
Tired of shooting too low
So raise the bar high"
Just enough," ain't enough this time
I ain't settlin'
For just getting by
I've had enough so-so
For the rest of my life
Tired of shooting too low
So raise the bar high
I ain't settlin'
No, no, no, no, no, no
So raise the bar high, high...."

My momma has always told me not to settle, in any aspect of my life, for ANYTHING less than what I deserve. As I look back over the last few years, in relationships, in my career, in my daily life, I feel like I have been "settling" for what I thought I could have. It's like I find something that I think I want, and I hold on to it, not letting go, for the fear of not finding something better. When, all the while, I know that I deserve better. And, I know that eventually, that "something better" will come my way. I feel like I've spent the last few years "settling," keeping things and people close by, kind of like my safe haven, while, all the while, I'm looking the whole time for something better to come my way. I guess I'm just realizing now that I deserve better, and that's what I'm out to find!!